Every now and then I’ll have very vivid dreams. One night in particular, I dreamt there was a bull in my backyard. I remember waking, walking to the bathroom and moving the curtain aside to look out of the window. The first thing I saw was a big black bull in my backyard. It didn’t move, it just stared up at me.
Not sure what to make of it, I retreated to my room. Soon after, the bull began charging into my house. I called the police. While I’m not sure what I thought they would do, I called them anyway and shortly after the call I woke up.
The following morning, still startled by the dream (read nightmare) I searched the phrase “bull in my backyard. I was surprised to find there is a book called, A Bull in my Backyard and it’s about you (you and me) being the source of our own stress.
Several days during that week I felt like I wasn’t catching any breaks. I actually felt sad – it was a funk I couldn’t shake even though things were fine.
Reading the summary of this book made me realize that yeah, I am the bull(ly) in my own backyard. Constantly comparing or complaining, feeling like life isn’t fair when I’ve been super blessed and not being able to get out of my own way.
I hated that dream but it led me to a revelation. I have to take better care of myself. Not just my physical self but my spiritual and emotional self. I’m going to try to stop comparing (the over analysis that leads to stress) and give myself some grace. More than anything else, I’m going to move forward and get out of my own way.
Are you the bull(ly) in your own backyard? Are you being hard on yourself? You’re not alone. We all do it from time to time, many of us do it often. Just breathe and give yourself some grace, vow to treat your mind and spirit better and we can move from being the bullies in our backyards to the conquer and encourager our corners.