Written on April 14th, 2021
While in the shower today, I’ve been in deep reflection about the happenings of this year. This has been a challenging start to the year. It’s been both revelatory and extremely hard. Through it all, God has shown up in incredible, Word-confirming ways!
You haven’t heard from me for a while because I didn’t have the energy to write. I couldn’t settle my mind long enough to get the words out. It wasn’t until today, April 14th, that I was able to write more than a few words.
From battling Covid in January to finding my mom unresponsive in March (she’s better now), it has been a trying year.
Anxiety was a mainstay. Heart palpitations, racing thoughts, running scenarios, afraid to sleep, and watching my mom as she slept to make sure she was still breathing. It brought me back to a time in my childhood when I did the same.
Now that I’m older, I can clearly see the roots of anxiety, where it began and what I need to do to fight it.
But I don’t want to sway you the wrong way, this is not a sad story. It’s one of growth, through incredible turmoil that has produced, in a lot of ways, a new me.
I have watched God work ALL of this out for my good. And I promise you, God will do the same for you.
So as I come down off of this vacation high (or not), I am reminded that God promises beauty for ashes, enough of everything for each day, and a love that is unmatched!
Things have been incredibly hard. I hope you see the good in what you’re going through.