He Broke It

First, Glory to God for ALL He has done.

Lately I’ve been deep in Matthew and Mark and meditating on the verses where Jesus blessed it and broke it.

Many of you have heard this story - how He took little and fed thousands - but I’ve been in this reflective place wondering how and why He did it, and how it applies to me.

In May of this year I was told my position, the one I hadn’t spent 2 years in, would no longer be included in the budget. The timing of it all was challenging. I found out shortly after the anniversary of my mother’s passing and right before Mother’s Day. I was shocked, and later became angry but in the midst of it, I tightened up my resume and started applying for jobs.

Something told me to wait a week until the dust settled and the other side of me said, no do it now. So I turned on my alerts and applied for a bunch of jobs.

One of the jobs I applied to is one I’d applied to twice before. The first time I saw the job years ago I thought, wow I would love to do this - and didn’t make it past the phone screen. I didn’t know enough and I was clear on that.

The second time, I applied while my mom was in hospice. I knew much more but without knowing the day my mom would ultimately pass, I scheduled the interview for the Tuesday after she died. I was so disheveled I didn’t know whether to go forward with the interview or cancel it but I kept it because I did want a new job.

I bombed the interview.

I got off the phone knowing I didn’t get the job. I also knew I needed the summer to grieve and this job required summer work.

I was able to land a different job and through that work, I met one of the women who got the job and she is phenomenal! I also worked with members of the team. I actually sat in a training she was leading and was like, she’s it! She was the choice!

So in May of this year, after learning my job wouldn’t last past September 30th, I applied to this job a 3rd time and I am happy to say I was offered (and accepted!) the job.

He blessed it - this opportunity is a blessing. I’ll be working with teachers to support them in closing foundational literacy gaps for their students.

He broke it - he let me know I wasn’t ready but also put me in a position to be ready.

He multiplied it - not only will I have a chance to support teachers and children on a new level, this position will be the start of a new level of change across my school district. I’m also grateful to have the opportunity to work alongside some really smart gals! I’m so excited for my learning to once again, multiply!

I am grateful, thankful and blessed and I’m so glad I didn’t give up. I had to stay in, even through the shock and disappointment to see Him bless it, break it, and multiply it. In Jesus’ name.